Thursday, December 31, 2009

2009 in Review

One year and two weeks ago I was in the car with my family on the way to a Christmas piano recital. As we neared our destination my mother made an offhand (and quickly forgotten) comment that lead me to believe a good friend of mine had spoken to my father about courting me. It’s hard to describe the mix of emotions this news brought to me. There was surprised elation, of course, but this was quickly overpowered by fear. I was afraid that somehow in letting us get so close I’d accidentally lead him on, and that because of my indiscretion my friend was now making a terrible mistake.

I barely slept the next several days, until finally God gave me two verses that calmed my soul. The first one was very specific to the situation, but the second one I knew God intended to be my verse for the entire year. It was Psalm 27:14.

“Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.”

The verse was a comfort to me then, and has indeed been the theme verse for this past year. One year ago I was waiting for my Knight to make his first move and ask for my hand in marriage. He did this in mid-February. But the waiting was hardly over in February--since then we’ve both been waiting!

I’ve heard the phrase, coined by Joshua Harris, “Hustle while you wait!” He used it to mean that single people shouldn’t sit around waiting for their perfect mate, but instead should stay busy serving the Lord. The phrase doesn’t just apply to single people. It also aptly describes this period in my life. Though I am very much in a “holding pattern” as I await the signal from my groom that the time is right, I am also filling the time constructively. In the past year I started a new job. I’ve started, finished, and self-published my first book. I’ve wrapped up all my college courses. I’ve relentlessly continued my education in more martially inclined topics. I never did have a hope chest, but now I do have a “hope-corner-of-the-garage” that is rapidly expanding. I’m hustling while I wait.

I’m not sure what all God has in store for next year. I can see some of the picture, but not all of it. I don’t know what the theme for the year will be either, though I know there will be one. There always is for me. As much as I don’t know, there is one thing that I do know—God will be faithful. He will carry out His plan, despite what I—or anyone else—do.